ANOTHER DAY WITHOUT HIM...

DATE : 2/20/2013

It's been a long time that I didn't post my blog. I have a lot of reasons.. hahaha.. but it will be my secret.. sorry guys.. 
How are you doing? How's your Wednesday? Me, I am fine but I am missing someone. Just a short summary about what happen last time. He passed the test and he is now in Chicago at the boot camp for his training to be a navy. I feel sad but at the same time I am happy that his dreams are coming true. He will be a SAILOR. I know that the training will be difficult but I know that he can do it. 

   I read a lot of stories about girls that has a boyfriend that is a navy and sometimes there relationship works and sometimes not.  Since, he is in boot camp it will be more difficult for us to communicate. No cellphone, Ipad, laptop and even notebook inside the boot camp. I know what are the things that he needs to bring in boot camp. He promise that he is going to send me letters. I am still waiting for the valentines gift that he send last next week. Oh my! it is the second gift that he send. 

 Long distance relationship is a tough one. I need to wait for a year so that we can meet each other. I want to wait for him and he assures me that we are going to see each other soon. He is very important in my life and I know that soon we will be together.SOMEDAY!

 

2 DAYS TO GO... V DAY!

DATE: FEBRUARY 12,2013

Hey, it's been so long that I haven't updated this. Well, Valentines Day is near so for now I'll just post  LOVE QUOTES that you can use for your loved one. Enjoy Reading ^_^

 

Loving is not just looking at each other, it's looking in the same direction.  ~Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, Wind, Sand, and Stars, 1939

For you see, each day I love you more
Today more than yesterday and less than tomorrow.
~Rosemonde Gerard

We're all a little weird.  And life is a little weird.  And when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall into mutually satisfying weirdness - and call it love - true love.  ~Robert Fulghum, True Love

Time is too slow for those who wait, too swift for those who fear, too long for those who grieve, too short for those who rejoice, but for those who love, time is eternity.  ~Henry Van Dyke

When you're in love you never really know whether your elation comes from the qualities of the one you love, or if it attributes them to her; whether the light which surrounds her like a halo comes from you, from her, or from the meeting of your sparks.  ~Natalie Clifford Barney
 

    

You know when you have found your prince because you not only have a smile on your face but in your heart as well.  ~Author Unknown

“I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.” ― Marilyn Monroe

“I am nothing special, of this I am sure. I am a common man with common thoughts and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough..” ― Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook

“The real lover is the man who can thrill you by kissing your forehead or smiling into your eyes or just staring into space.”- Marilyn Monroe

“You don't love someone because they're perfect, you love them in spite of the fact that they're not.” ― Jodi Picoult, The Sister's Keeper 

 

Hope you like the quotes that I posted. Till next time ^_^

LOVE.. LOVE.. LOVE

DEE♥

   

SO SOON...

DATE: FEBRUARY 8,2013

Woot! woot! It's Friday... Yipee! tomorrow is weekend. I am thinking what I am going to do tomorrow. Will I| go shopping? Watch a movie? DVD marathon? Surf the Net? Wew!! Too much things to do... But I am not sure if I can do it. Silly me O_o ... Okay, let me start my diary now.

 While chatting with him last night he became serious again. OMG! not again. He told me something last night. And I don't know if it's good news or bad news for me. He said that he should tell me in advance. He will take the ASVAB (Armed Services Vocational Aptitude Battery) on monday and once he pass it he will take the NAVY test and PHYSICAL test and once he pass on the same week he is going to BOOT CAMP in Illinois. He said that it will take for about 10 weeks for the training.

Silence for awhile... I am happy that he is pursuing his dreams to be a navy but sad at the same time because we don't have communication for almost 3 months. That long??? But I am just scared that he might not communicate anymore after the training. Here I go again, I feel sad. I am going to miss him. 

I don't want to be selfish. I already knew from the start that he is going to be in the navy and he really wants to do it. And now that there's good opportunity he needs to grab it. I just can't show how I feel about his plans. I need to be happy for him. I need to support him. But why do I feel this way? I am not that happy. Is it because we are just starting to be okay again and suddenly he is going.

Do I need to count days now? Am I ready for this? Is it too soon? urrghh!! Think positive and I know that it will be good for the future. For our Future to be exact. I hope he thinks the same way,too. I wish that everything will be fine when he enters the boot camp. I tried to read some articles about it and it's terrible. But I wish that he can make it and he will graduate for sure. And soon he will be in the Navy! I can't wait to see him in his US Navy uniform ^_^

Hopefully, everything will be fine and okay. I'm proud of him! For you SHAWN ♥

and always remember:

Happy Weekend Everyone ^_^

DEE♥

REALIZATIONS

DATE: FEBRUARY 7,2013

Last night, while talking to him he confesses to me about something. But it takes a lot of courage for him to say it.There's silence and long time of waiting to replied back. And I am so curious what will be his confessions. What will it be? Is it bad or good? No Clue.

Hmmmm.. Long wait is over. We are very serious that time. Serious talk with him. He said that he is very nervous.He told me that he is sorry if he took me for granted before. He is not showy to his feelings. He said that he should be frank on what he feels about me before. Oooopppsss... OMG! Wait a second, what is this? I am very nervous about what he is going to say. There I go again. Flashback memories. Scared of it!

He said that he realize he should be there for me when the times that I was down and having trouble. He suddenly said " You don't know what you have until it's gone " and it's true. His reason why he is not showy before because he doesn't want to lose me. Now, he is trying all his best to make me feel more special and he wants this relationship to last longer. The time that we are arguing about what had happen before he really felt that I will give up. He said that while he is reading the messages that I posted he was hurt and he said that he should never hurt me. I just listen to him. It was a long talk. Long conversation. 

This time, I answer back. I told him that I think it's good that something had happen to us. I mean there are many realizations. If it didn't happen he won't show what he really feels for me. This time he wants us not to argue and fight. If ever that happen, we should talk about it and find a good solution for the problem. I guess it is true that you should be open to the one you love so that you won't regret anything. 

If you love someone you shouldn't be holding back your feelings towards her because that you don't want to lose her. What if she suddenly stops loving you and she wants to move on without you? What are you going to do? It's too late to say you love her and you want to keep her for a long time. And she answers "Sorry, it's too late!". You already hurt her because at first she is really head over heels with you and she feels she is not important. She finally made up her mind and let you go.You should be sensitive to your partner's feelings. Ask some questions to yourself. And that's the time you realize that she is important in your life. It hurts right? And you will ask yourself why did you hurt her? I should never did it. I made a biggest mistake in letting her go.

You should have an open communication with your partner saying I love you everyday it's fine at least you are frank and very open to him. Some relationships have only one-way communication and that's not good and not healthy for the both of you. You should have two-way communication so if you argue or you are sharing something while someone is talking someone is listening. Keep that it mind that some relationships don't last forever.As long as that someone is with you, be open on how you feel make him/her so special. Do something to make him/ her important. 

Good thing, he is now very open and showy on how he feels about me. I am feeling much better. Now, I know that he is really serious with us. Our relationship. It's just funny while I was writing this blog. I can't believe that he is much better now. I am happy that he loves me more. I must be thankful of what had happen.Love is just CRAZY... 

Till next time. Love Quotes below:

Love until it hurts and when it hurts, love some more. Love until you don’t care about the pain, until you stop expecting anything in return, until all that matters is loving that person the best way you can.

Love is a noble act of self-giving. The more you love, the more you lose a part of you. Yet you do not become less of who you are. In fact, you end up being complete.

Sometimes we must be hurt in order to grow, fall in order to know, lose in order to gain. And sometimes we have to be broken so we can be whole again.

DEE♥  

Wanna Fall In Love Again

DATE: FEBRUARY 6,2013

8 days more and it's Love day is ON... I am so excited and I just can't hide it! Am I happy? Yes, I am supeerrr happy ^_^ ... We're are okay now and I already tell him " I LOVE YOU" ... oh my gee! back to myself again. We talked a lot about everything last night.. He is now smiling and keeps on talking and sharing a lot... 

I can feel that he changed after what had happen to the both of us. He is sweeter and he is really in love. I can't believe that it's him. hahaha.. Our conversation is so different like before we swap attitude. I am the one that is not that sweet and I don't say i love him much. And now he keeps on saying he loves me and he doesn't want us to be apart. ^_^ isn't it better? Love is really sweeter the second time around! ♥

 

He said that he will post the certificate that he is longing for. I am a proud girlfriend to see the name on his diploma and one more test and he is ready to be in navy. But first, he needs to get his transcript because it is needed as a requirement. He can't wait for the day that he will take the test and pass and start to be train in US Navy. I am so happy for him because it's his dream. 

 

Once he pass the test I am so lucky to have a navy boyfriend. Can't wait for that day... I pray that he pass the test. Need more prayers but I really know that he can do it. I wanna fall in love again because it's a really nice feeling. I know I eat my words and I feel so bitter last time but who can blame me. I still love him and I really care for him. Next time, "I am a Proud Navy Girlfriend". So, keep on falling in love when they hurt you stand back and be happy again. Leave the misery ... 

I am thinking that since it is Love Month I will post some LOVE quotes so that you can feel that love is everywhere whether you are single, taken, married, divorced or just somebody. Till next time. ♥

"You know you truly love somebody when they hurt you so badly, but all you can think about it is the times when they made you smile". 

 “You brighten my world like no one else in my life would, you make me smile and warm my heart like no one else, you make me feel that I’m in love again its like you came to steal my love for him, just come to me and tell me that its only me, you bring the light to my world like no one else in this life will.”

“True love is not how you forgive, but how you forget, not what you see but what you feel, not how you listen but how you understand, and not how you let go but how you hold on.”

DEE♥

Better Days

DATE: FEBRUARY 5, 2013

Today, the 5th day of LOVE MONTH. Days go by and I feel that I am getting better. I am happy now that he is doing all for us to be okay. I can see and feel that he really do love me. I just need to hide my "kilig" if he send me message and send something sweet. Before, I am the one posting messages that is sweet and now it's his turn. ^^

Loving someone is a great feeling but there will be a time that something will happen in your relationship. The only thing that you can do is cry and you feel you want to give up you relationship with him. When the time comes that you are giving up. Try to loosen up. Help yourself. Pray and ask for help. He can give you better answer and help you clear your mind.

Earlier, I read my friend's blog and I was inspired by it. Wew! he is good in writing about LOVE. He is correct love is not about material things. If you love someone you can do something for him/her to show how much you love the person. The best thing , for me if you love someone he/ she is  there not really physically but emotionally and spiritually if you are so down and you need somebody to talk to.

I can see beautiful days for the both of us. We need to take it slow for now. For me, I am just making sure that it won't happen again. Stressful days are over and I can feel love again. Can't wait for the Love day.I still remember he said : " I won't let you go... I love you so much ♥ ".

Till next time.. :) LOVE.. LOVE... LOVE... ♥

DEE♥

A THOUSAND YEAR ♥

DATE: FEBRUARY 4,2013

Hi! Happy Monday everyone ^^ I need to start the day with a SMILE and be happy. Well, I am happy and I think I want to be in love again. Last weekend, I was not in the mood and I cannot make any blogs because I still feel the pain and still hurt. I have a lot of realization that if I want to be happy again I need to forgive him and give him a chance. But before I did it I ask for a SIGN to help me clear up my mind.

 

It's so funny but all the signs that I ask for came true. I was pissed off at first but I realize that maybe there's a purpose why do I need to forgive him.. I still love him and even if he hurts me I still want him back. While he is sending me messages in FB I felt sad coz I know that he doesn't know how to start the conversation. It feels very awkward to the both of us not to share a lot in a day. 

But today, I am happy that he pass his GED test and one more test then he will be on the navy. I am not showy nowadays. I really want to say I LOVE YOU but I can't ... sooooon... For me, even if the person you really love hurts you, you need to forgive him/ her so that you feel free. I know that there is still pain but I need to get over and be happy. He loves me so much and he proved it for the past day. Forgiveness is the key to Happiness.

Last weekend, I was into music. I listen to Christina Perri's song " A Thousand Years " and I think it fits for the both of us. I tried to watch the last scene of the movie Twilight Part 2 and when that song played I was crying. I just don't know but I was touched by it. If you love someone whatever he has done bad or good you need to accept it and forgive him/ her. Try to listen to him and let him explain. When done ask some questions and talk to him. Be honest on how you feel. Let him know. I guess, everything will be fine soon between me and him. All I want to say to him:

I want to thank GOD for being so good to me. "I know that you have a plan for the both of us. Just guide us so that we will know how to be strong and handle our relationship. Thank you for letting him pass his test and guide him with his dreams. Thank you for helping me to forgive and do not feel hatred. I know that in time we will meet and that will be the time that we will stay together. Guide me everyday. Help me to ease the pain and help me to clear my mind. Thank you for staying in my life even if sometimes I let you down. Make me stronger and guide me from all the obstacles that I am going to encounter. Bless us always and forever. You are now the center of my life.Thank you for accepting me again. I love you, God ♥ AMEN".

Thank you for reading my blog. ^^ Hope you like it guys .. Until next time.. LOVE LOVE LOVE...

Smile and be Happy ♥♥♥

DEE♥

 

  

HE IS BACK.....

DATE: FEBRUARY 1, 2013

Today is the first day of the Month ... LOVE MONTH... I think today is a day that I feel a lot of emotions... mixed emotions to be exact!

Yes, he is really back and that's the of my "whirlwind madness". This morning his friend sent a message that he wants to talk to me and his account was deleted by his cousin. The first thing I asked is why he is not replying? There's a lot of WHY??  I guess , I have the right to ask him a lot of questions why he is gone for almost 17 days... But to my surprise I didn't ask.. I just listen to his answers and just say okay... 

 

I don't want to say what is his reasons for not replying I think I need to keep it on my own. I don't know how I am feeling while I am reading his messages. Well, I don't want to judge him right away but I need to weigh it first. He needs to do something to win me back if ever he wants to do it and it all up to him. I am just okay now. I just feel fine and calm. There's a lot of thoughts that is running thru my mind and a lot of questions but it's hard to say it and express it.

 I don't know what I am going to do. I just can't think of anything. I need someone to give me more advices about this. I know that I feel something for him and I can't deny it. I am just happy that tomorrow is Saturday and I can think more and be on my own. I need a quiet time for myself. I asked for the sign and it was given to me. I had to be brave to face it. I am strong and I know I can do this! I hope that this mixed emotion thing will be fade away soon. 

HAPPY WEEKEND EVERYONE! 

Love ..Love.. Love..

DEE♥