Better Days

DATE: FEBRUARY 5, 2013

Today, the 5th day of LOVE MONTH. Days go by and I feel that I am getting better. I am happy now that he is doing all for us to be okay. I can see and feel that he really do love me. I just need to hide my "kilig" if he send me message and send something sweet. Before, I am the one posting messages that is sweet and now it's his turn. ^^

Loving someone is a great feeling but there will be a time that something will happen in your relationship. The only thing that you can do is cry and you feel you want to give up you relationship with him. When the time comes that you are giving up. Try to loosen up. Help yourself. Pray and ask for help. He can give you better answer and help you clear your mind.

Earlier, I read my friend's blog and I was inspired by it. Wew! he is good in writing about LOVE. He is correct love is not about material things. If you love someone you can do something for him/her to show how much you love the person. The best thing , for me if you love someone he/ she is  there not really physically but emotionally and spiritually if you are so down and you need somebody to talk to.

I can see beautiful days for the both of us. We need to take it slow for now. For me, I am just making sure that it won't happen again. Stressful days are over and I can feel love again. Can't wait for the Love day.I still remember he said : " I won't let you go... I love you so much ♥ ".

Till next time.. :) LOVE.. LOVE... LOVE... ♥

DEE♥

A THOUSAND YEAR ♥

DATE: FEBRUARY 4,2013

Hi! Happy Monday everyone ^^ I need to start the day with a SMILE and be happy. Well, I am happy and I think I want to be in love again. Last weekend, I was not in the mood and I cannot make any blogs because I still feel the pain and still hurt. I have a lot of realization that if I want to be happy again I need to forgive him and give him a chance. But before I did it I ask for a SIGN to help me clear up my mind.

 

It's so funny but all the signs that I ask for came true. I was pissed off at first but I realize that maybe there's a purpose why do I need to forgive him.. I still love him and even if he hurts me I still want him back. While he is sending me messages in FB I felt sad coz I know that he doesn't know how to start the conversation. It feels very awkward to the both of us not to share a lot in a day. 

But today, I am happy that he pass his GED test and one more test then he will be on the navy. I am not showy nowadays. I really want to say I LOVE YOU but I can't ... sooooon... For me, even if the person you really love hurts you, you need to forgive him/ her so that you feel free. I know that there is still pain but I need to get over and be happy. He loves me so much and he proved it for the past day. Forgiveness is the key to Happiness.

Last weekend, I was into music. I listen to Christina Perri's song " A Thousand Years " and I think it fits for the both of us. I tried to watch the last scene of the movie Twilight Part 2 and when that song played I was crying. I just don't know but I was touched by it. If you love someone whatever he has done bad or good you need to accept it and forgive him/ her. Try to listen to him and let him explain. When done ask some questions and talk to him. Be honest on how you feel. Let him know. I guess, everything will be fine soon between me and him. All I want to say to him:

I want to thank GOD for being so good to me. "I know that you have a plan for the both of us. Just guide us so that we will know how to be strong and handle our relationship. Thank you for letting him pass his test and guide him with his dreams. Thank you for helping me to forgive and do not feel hatred. I know that in time we will meet and that will be the time that we will stay together. Guide me everyday. Help me to ease the pain and help me to clear my mind. Thank you for staying in my life even if sometimes I let you down. Make me stronger and guide me from all the obstacles that I am going to encounter. Bless us always and forever. You are now the center of my life.Thank you for accepting me again. I love you, God ♥ AMEN".

Thank you for reading my blog. ^^ Hope you like it guys .. Until next time.. LOVE LOVE LOVE...

Smile and be Happy ♥♥♥

DEE♥

 

  

HE IS BACK.....

DATE: FEBRUARY 1, 2013

Today is the first day of the Month ... LOVE MONTH... I think today is a day that I feel a lot of emotions... mixed emotions to be exact!

Yes, he is really back and that's the of my "whirlwind madness". This morning his friend sent a message that he wants to talk to me and his account was deleted by his cousin. The first thing I asked is why he is not replying? There's a lot of WHY??  I guess , I have the right to ask him a lot of questions why he is gone for almost 17 days... But to my surprise I didn't ask.. I just listen to his answers and just say okay... 

 

I don't want to say what is his reasons for not replying I think I need to keep it on my own. I don't know how I am feeling while I am reading his messages. Well, I don't want to judge him right away but I need to weigh it first. He needs to do something to win me back if ever he wants to do it and it all up to him. I am just okay now. I just feel fine and calm. There's a lot of thoughts that is running thru my mind and a lot of questions but it's hard to say it and express it.

 I don't know what I am going to do. I just can't think of anything. I need someone to give me more advices about this. I know that I feel something for him and I can't deny it. I am just happy that tomorrow is Saturday and I can think more and be on my own. I need a quiet time for myself. I asked for the sign and it was given to me. I had to be brave to face it. I am strong and I know I can do this! I hope that this mixed emotion thing will be fade away soon. 

HAPPY WEEKEND EVERYONE! 

Love ..Love.. Love..

DEE♥ 

 

 

BEGINNING TODAY ♥

DATE: JANUARY 31, 2013

Days went by so fast and this is the last day of the month. Bye January... Hello February ... L♥ve month... Well, I guess people that are in love are excited to celebrate love on Feb...

 How about me? Let me think.... Of course I am ...Fresh start from the crying days... it's over and Past needs to be done and say goodbye to it. I am not "bitter" anymore. I think the last blog that I posted made me realize that LIFE GOES ON... and don't hate the person that hurts you. Just thank that person. I read some inspirational quotes earlier and I feel happier while reading it. Let me post the quote:

Everyone has a problem and if you are strong to handle it you can survive. I guess, I am brave enough to face the problem with the help of my friends and my mom. I don't need to stay in the dark and be alone. I know that I can learn from this. When I try to look back about what had happen between us I think there are more happy memories than sad. I think I don't regret my decision. I already done my part and I don't have to feel sad anymore. I survive. I am happy.

Everything happens for a reason. Everyone needs to feel pain so that they can learn from it.  You need to stand up if someone push you. Don't think negative things. Smile always.  Close your eyes ... Relax... Free your mind from sadness ... Be thankful that you survive the test that you encountered. It's your choice.. If you want to be sad... Be sad.. but if you want to move on and Be Happy... YeS! 

The next blog will be different.. The REAL DEE... for sure.. The happier... The craziness is ON... Thanks for reading my blog.. Thanks for the advice... I am going to write my story and my LOVE story (real soooonnn...) but he is not yet around he must have been lost somewhere... Till next time.. LOVE is still around... I'm going to catch it for sure....

   

DEE♥

SOMEDAY... PRINCE CHARMING!

This is my second part of my blog.  Last night while I was listening to music ... I heard Nina's Song : Someday. I was touched by the lyrics. Still I cannot forget the line:

 

This song is appropriate for me. But does anyone of you believe in Prince Charming? I don't want to be "bitter"  but I am in doubt with the "Prince Charming thing". 

Every girl wants somebody to be with them in their life.They want  to have a partner or better half that will love them forever and be loyal to them. As, I am writing this down I'm smiling and asking myself why do I feel this way? Why??? Bitterness can't make me happy. It's like I am still holding on with that person and can't move on.  Girl, you need to stop it! Don't be bitter with other couples or other people that are in love.

There will be a right time that you will FALL IN LOVE again. You will meet the right PRINCE for YOU. Just be happy and smile always. Try to have a break for awhile.Have fun first. If the right person comes, grab the opportunity and remember all the mistakes that you did from the past and don't do it again. 

I think HAPPY ENDING is REAL. PRINCE CHARMING is REAL. Don't lose hope. Love will find you. God will give you a right time and right person that will LOVE YOU FOREVER. Just be thankful that person made you happy once and let you feel love. 

The next chapter of my life starts .... New Life... New things and New people to meet...

Love is just around there... Someday someone will love me for REAL! Someday, I'll get my HAPPY ENDING ^_^

 

DEE♥

  

FORGET him FOR REAL!!!

DATE : JANUARY 30, 2013

Today, I feeling much better than yesterday. I am now in the acceptance phase. I already told myself that our love story needs to be ended.

LOVE ... LOVE ... LOVE... is such a great feeling. When a person is in love she is inspired and blooming but how about if the person FALLS OUT OF LOVE... Can she mend a broken heart on her own? Can she forgets the person that hurts her the most? Can she move on to the next phase of her life?

I can give you TIPS that can help you EASE the PAIN:

Since I am starting to accept and moving on... The hardest phase is ACCEPTANCE that the person that you are waiting for and you love will never come back. A lot of tears, shattered dreams and happy memories are starting to fade away. 

But girl, you need to be brave enough to stand up and heal your broken heart. I know that it's so easy to say but try to SMILE again. Smiling is one of the things that can help you to ease the pain. Smile makes your day brighter!

 

Look for ACTIVITIES that can help you not to remember him. Go out with  your friends, go shopping, watch a movie, try to do a BLOG (like me ^_^) just let yourself be BUSY.  

If you have enough budget, you can ask a friend to accompany you to TRAVEL to another place like going to the beach so that you can RELAX your mind. Try to have a massage and do spa there. 

  

Stay away from Alcoholic Drinks it can't help you with your problems it can gives you more PAIN. Headache and Hangover!

How about making yourself be BEAUTIFUL ... like go to salon and have a hair spa. You can do manicure and pedicure with a friend well, this is the time to do a girl bonding with your friends after the crying time. 

You can do SLEEP OVER to your friends house you can do movie marathon, have a popcorn and chit chat times with them but don't open up about the EX thing coz you might be crying again and walks out of the room.

Lastly, never ever reminisce the past relationship you had with him. You can keep the happy part but don't be so attach with it. Day by day, you will FORGET that person and you can GET OUT of that sadness and be FREE.  

Some relationships have a happy ending and some needs to end because both parties are not meant to be forever. But do not just stay in the dark and cry. Get out and have fun! We need to be happy and live life to the fullest! People come and go. Love yourself first before loving others.

 Thanks for reading ^_^

DEE♥