DATE: FEBRUARY 4,2013
Hi! Happy Monday everyone ^^ I need to start the day with a SMILE and be happy. Well, I am happy and I think I want to be in love again. Last weekend, I was not in the mood and I cannot make any blogs because I still feel the pain and still hurt. I have a lot of realization that if I want to be happy again I need to forgive him and give him a chance. But before I did it I ask for a SIGN to help me clear up my mind.
It's so funny but all the signs that I ask for came true. I was pissed off at first but I realize that maybe there's a purpose why do I need to forgive him.. I still love him and even if he hurts me I still want him back. While he is sending me messages in FB I felt sad coz I know that he doesn't know how to start the conversation. It feels very awkward to the both of us not to share a lot in a day.
But today, I am happy that he pass his GED test and one more test then he will be on the navy. I am not showy nowadays. I really want to say I LOVE YOU but I can't ... sooooon... For me, even if the person you really love hurts you, you need to forgive him/ her so that you feel free. I know that there is still pain but I need to get over and be happy. He loves me so much and he proved it for the past day. Forgiveness is the key to Happiness.
Last weekend, I was into music. I listen to Christina Perri's song " A Thousand Years " and I think it fits for the both of us. I tried to watch the last scene of the movie Twilight Part 2 and when that song played I was crying. I just don't know but I was touched by it. If you love someone whatever he has done bad or good you need to accept it and forgive him/ her. Try to listen to him and let him explain. When done ask some questions and talk to him. Be honest on how you feel. Let him know. I guess, everything will be fine soon between me and him. All I want to say to him:
I want to thank GOD for being so good to me. "I know that you have a plan for the both of us. Just guide us so that we will know how to be strong and handle our relationship. Thank you for letting him pass his test and guide him with his dreams. Thank you for helping me to forgive and do not feel hatred. I know that in time we will meet and that will be the time that we will stay together. Guide me everyday. Help me to ease the pain and help me to clear my mind. Thank you for staying in my life even if sometimes I let you down. Make me stronger and guide me from all the obstacles that I am going to encounter. Bless us always and forever. You are now the center of my life.Thank you for accepting me again. I love you, God ♥ AMEN".
Smile and be Happy ♥♥♥
DEE♥
I am happy how you found God in the midst of the situation that you've just gone through. I know that it's really hard to forgive but once you've forgiven someone, you too will feel good about it. You didn't just take out the burden from the person who hurt you but the burden in your heart as well...
ReplyDeleteI just hope that you take everything slowly..I feel that you love Shawn but it pays to be more careful the second time around. Don't invest so much..let him be the one to show how worthy you are for him..After all, you are God's princess, and you deserve no less than a prince who will make you feel that you are truly valued and loved..♥
Pat,
ReplyDeletewow.. thank you.. so sweet of you.. I like the message. ^^
Yes, I need to be more careful than the last time. I hope that it won't happen again. You already know how I feel and what is on my mind.
I am just happy that God is always there..:)
Godbless.
DEE♥
Dee I have to agree with Patricia word for word. I couldn't have said it better myself. You are a great girl, worthy of love and so much more. I can say that I am glad that he is back in your life cause I know how you felt when he was away from you. God is always with you, and you know just as well as I do that God gives you strength. So never loose sight of that, don't overthink this situation that has occurred with you and your guy. Time heals all wounds, so believe in God as well as the bond that you and your man share that it will strengthen and you'll have a great future together.
ReplyDeleteGod Bless Dee.
Hi David,
ReplyDeleteThanks for posting a comment here. Yes, I am braver now. I must say I am trying to heal my wounds by myself ...
I wish that everything will be fine now.^^
DEE♥